Yvette plus Daniel

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10:22 PM

Day 12 - Normalizing Grief Grief is a funny thing. Most of the time, I don't understand my own grief. At first, I often felt like my grieving process was inappropriate. My baby died. I am separated from the best thing I ever created, my most prized possession. I've never loved anyone quite the way I love Grayson....

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9:53 PM

Day 11 - Glow in the Woods My glow in the woods is the site Scribbles and Crumbs. If you don't know about it, go and check it out. Lexie is an amazing writer. She has this amazing ability to put into words exactly how I feel. When I found out that Grayson had CDH, her site helped...

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11:04 PM

Day 10 - Words Today happened to be so busy so I didn't get a chance to sit down and write. But I have a lot to say so I'll be sure to find some alone time tomorrow to sit and write down what I'm feeling. In the meantime, I've included the words of a poem that have...

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10:47 PM

Day 9 - Family I love this family of mine more than words can express. They are my everything. I am so blessed to have these very souls, because they are making me a better person and I have no doubt they are helping me become who God needs me to be. Grayson made us a family of...

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10:18 AM

Day 8 - Wish List Every night, I wish to dream about Grayson. Every minute, I wish to feel him close. Every second, I wish he was still with me. ...

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7:17 PM

Day 7 - Memory After Grayson passed, his body was able to stay with us for up to twenty four hours. Years ago, the thought of that probably would have been weird to me, but being in that position now, I wouldn't have been able to say goodbye without that time. Holding his little body was such a...

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11:21 AM

Day 6 - Books As soon as I read The Little Prince in 11th grade, I knew it was a book I wanted to read to my children. I'm re-reading it now and realizing it feels more like a book for adults, since it teaches a lot of life lessons and doesn't read in a way children easily...

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9:51 PM

Day 5 - Empathy Losing our baby was so so hard and it continues to be. But knowing that people are thinking about me, my husband, and especially Grayson, lessens the sting just a little bit. When Grayson passed, we were met with so much service and kindness that it brought me to tears. Driving home, we noticed...

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8:58 PM

Day 4 - Dark + Light The dark side of grief and the light side of grief. I think the darkest times come when I feel alone. That usually happens when I haven't talked about Grayson in a while. When I haven't talked about how much I miss him and wish he were here. It also happens when I...

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6:45 PM

Day 3 - In Honor Of Today I talk about Grayson. He is a beautiful little boy, taken from this earth too soon. In my belly he was very calm some days, and very active other days. I could just picture him happy to sit and read books and just as happy to play sports with his dad....

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9:55 PM

Day 2 - Intention This one was a little hard for me. I wanted my intention for the month to be something that could change me, make me a better person in honor of Grayson. A lot of things came to mind, but they were things I was already working on. I wanted my intention to be new...

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11:37 AM

Day 1 - Sunrise October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month, and I've decided to participate in the #captureyourgrief project to honor Grayson, and all babies who have gone too soon, and all those grieving their loss. Mostly, though, I'm doing this for me. I hope this helps me heal, and I hope this helps me feel...

Letter to an Angel

10:37 PM

My dear, sweet Grayson, I truly believed that we would have more time with you, and I’m completely heartbroken that our time together was so short. I hope you felt our love for you, which is the most amazing, full, overwhelming love that I have ever felt. My heart’s capacity to love grew the minute I knew I...

About Grayson

10:52 AM

I woke up Wednesday morning thinking I would do nothing more than go to work and spend time at The Cheesecake Factory with siblings for my sister's birthday. Around lunchtime I got a call from Yvette. Yvette had had an appointment scheduled for around 2pm, but decided to go in a little early because she hadn't felt Grayson...

Baby George

1:19 PM

I don't even know where to begin...This is hard for me to write because part of me wants to keep this in and pretend like it's not happening, but keeping it in makes me feel alone, and that just adds to the pain. Our baby boy was diagnosed with Congenital Diaphragmatic Hernia and as soon as he comes...