#captureyourgrief

Day 1 - Sunrise October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month, and I've decided to participate in the #captureyourgrief p...

Day 1 - Sunrise




October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month, and I've decided to participate in the #captureyourgrief project to honor Grayson, and all babies who have gone too soon, and all those grieving their loss. Mostly, though, I'm doing this for me.  I hope this helps me heal, and I hope this helps me feel closer to Grayson.  That's what I want the most out of this.  Sometimes I have to make a conscious effort to feel my son nearby, because cleaning is distracting, and cooking is distracting, and TV is distracting.  (That's basically all I've done for the past two months and I think maybe I'm ready to get out of this rut.)  I don't want it to be like that anymore.  I want to see him in every sunrise I look at, and hear him in every beautiful song I listen to, and know him better through every poem I read.  So I'm hoping this brings me closer to him.

I saw this sunrise the morning of my birthday this year.  I woke up earlier than I wanted to, looked out the window and saw the most beautiful sunrise.  It looked like the clouds were on fire.  So I grabbed my robe and went outside and just stared.  And I knew I was meant to see that sunrise.  And I felt like it was a birthday gift from my Heavenly Father.  He let me know that Grayson is okay and is somewhere beautiful.  And that Grayson will send me little signs that he's thinking of me, like this sunrise.  

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  1. Yvette,

    I have loved your instagram posts. It is so refreshing to see little glimpses of real life on the internet. My thoughts are with you and your family. Thank you for being brave enough to share your journey.

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